19 March 2010

I guess this is the place for sad feelings. I feel really sad right now. Tomorrow or Sunday I will move from Susan and Andrea's after 2 1/2 years. At the same time that China was lost I found out that they think I moved here under false pretenses, that I purposefully gave the impression that I would be just visiting from time to time, not staying. Susan talked with Ed about it and his feeling was that she was quite desperate for me to leave. She said to me that wasn't true but that they "just needed a break" from time to time. That particular phrase certainly doesn't make me feel wanted at all. I am truly sorry that she had the wrong impression but she knew about the intention to have a Tumbleweed house and she was very forthcoming making fun of that and saying, no, no, we're going to buy a house, you can stay with us. I wish I hadn't come until Sarah had room for me. I think that would have made Sarah and Schuyler move faster to build the little house, and, also, I wouldn't have lost China. Well, needless to say, Susan and Andrea are in a hurry for me to be gone so they can make this bedroom into an office room. And also so that I won't be here, obviously. I feel quite sorry for myself. And I have lost a filling. And I have found a lump in my breast. Hooray for this week. Everybody says, you must be so excited to move into the little house, but I feel these other emotions. It's not fair to the cute little house.