That's that.

Now I have lost my dogs, my parents, and 50% of my special brothers, and I walked away from my beautiful gardens. I have chosen to live with the living so that is what I will do. I will remember that I can't hold on to anything when it's time to go, so I will hold on to what I can for as long as I can and try to enjoy every minute of it. I'm not going to go stand around and watch people cry and hug people I don't like and listen to stupid stories. If I were to do that, I would just cry and be mad at myself for crying and hugging. That part is over. I have all those photos and little doodads to make me cry but maybe I can use them to make me happy. I am the luckiest person in the world so I will go ahead and be happy about it. You can't hold me back with the tendency to depression and, if I lose my marbles, I will be a happy crazy person. So there.